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Saturday, April 10, 2021

A Year Gone

TBT HERE:  Today, a year ago, I had a wellness vet visit scheduled for Iza.  When I got up I discovered it was no longer a wellness visit.  It was a goodby visit... 

In one way, the surprise was horrible.  But in another, it was a kindness.  Sure, she had shown some slight problems.  She wasn't eating perfectly, but she did eat.  She liked the heated mat a lot the last few months, but she always had sought warmth and comfort.  She never showed any discomfort about being held or being moved around on my lap.  She was purring the night before.  She was only 12.

I say "kindness" because  there were not months of slow problems as it was for Skeeter.  Neither was there a disappearance as it was with Tinkerbelle.  Nor was there a sudden death as with LC comatose in the basement one morning.  

Iza was just unusually tired one day, napping more than usual on the heated mat, and the next morning there was blood on her backside.  If the vet knew the cause, she didn't offer it and I didn't ask.  

I miss Iza SO VERY MUCH.  Skeeter was a heart cat; so is Iza.  You can have more than one.  

So, today, I am remembering Iza.  Iza of the Lap, Iza of the Minky Fur, Iza of the undercovers at night, Iza the Mouser, Iza who adored me, Iza who stayed as near to me every day inside as she could, Iza the "Smudged Siamese" until I learned she was a Tonkinese, Iza the toy-player, Iza the chaser of tossed kibbles, Iza the fastidious groomer, Iza cardboard ripper...


Remembering you today, sweet girl...   How can it be only a year?  It seems like forever.

I turn around expecting to see you there and you aren't.  I hear a sound in the night, but it isn't your voice.  I cross my legs on the ottoman but you don't come up.  

I would have missed you as much if you had lived all the days of my life.  I would never have thought you in my life was too long no matter how many years.  But you were gone too soon even of your kind...

In a way, the years do not matter.  Any number of years were too few.  Forgive me that I did not know how to extend them...